Aaachhhooo!!!

I haven't updated this whole sense of smell deal, huh? Woops.

I still can't smell anything, though I was partially able to for about a week when the doctor put me on steroids. I got MRIs too and luckily, I have a healthy brain. I even have sinusitis/allergies. Unfortunately, it didn't tell me much about why I can't smell anything. Maybe it's the sinusitis but the neuro didn't know and told me that only time could tell whether I could smell anything again. Bleh. Tell me something I don't know!

So after the MRIs, I got sent to an allergist, which was today. I sat there for two hours getting an environmental allergy test. (Food tests will be in two weeks.) They put all these crazy things all over my back and had me wait 20 minutes to see if there's any reaction. I was allergic to weeds, trees, dust, and the worst of them all was grass pollen. My initial reaction...grass has pollen?

The allergist explained further and said that usually grass pollen comes out in April. However, with all the rain, it came out in May this year. It was apparently also the worst year of grass pollen recorded. So, if you've paid attention and remembered my last post about my car accident, you'll see that I got into a car accident the same time this nasty pollen polluted our air. Coincidence? We still don't know but I'm testing out all this medication to see if it clears me up. I also got the typical "Only time will tell about your sense of smell" lecture again too. Argh.

So if you see me around, especially at work, I'm not high... just suffering from some crazy @ss allergies.

Beauty and the Geek

I figured Beauty & The Geek would be another stupid, stereotypical reality show that irritated me by the 2nd episode so I didn't even bother watching the first episode. I remember a week or so later, a couple of friends kept ranting about how great of a show it was though so what the hell. I added it to my Tivo and left 3 episodes sitting there before I had enough to watch it.

Granted I didn't see the first episode, it didn't really matter. The second episode was still pretty so so and I kept laughing at the girls they chose for this show - the typical, bobbing your head side to side kind of girls. Bleh. I knew it. Geeky guys that are going to be extremely ridiculed. Pretty, ignorant girls that were going to be portrayed as sex symbols. I didn't watch the third episode for another week or so. Lack of motivation, lazy, out of time, who knows...

I finally got to the next episode and something about seeing one of the girls studying about rocket science and guys learning how to take girls out on dates (or was it the massages?) got me. Surprisingly, I was addicted! It was entertaining, yet deeper than I thought it would be. Girls were having revelations about beauty being skin deep, rather than their initial superficial needs in life they expressed. Guys were overcoming social fears they never could even fathom. By the end of the season, emotions and interactions overcame typical stereotypes. Maybe I'm overanalyzing the whole show.

Overall, I'm definitely looking forward to the 2nd season.

Honestly, if you're not willing to sound stupid you don't deserve to be in love.

~ A Lot Like Love

Happy 5th of July!

It's pretty trippy that a year's passed already - it went by faster than any year I've gone through. Every year I have a fourth of July bbq for my friends, since I rarely ever get to do anything nice for them through the year. This year, I debated on being selfish and disappear for my four day weekend. I could still remember last year's bbq, especially how hectic it was. So many people were there and I was so exhausted after despite the amount of fun I had.

This year, I compromised with myself. My selfish side figured that no one would miss it if I didn't have it. My unselfish side said it was one day of the year that I could show all my good friends how much they meant to me. There's a middle ground for everything so I chose to have it and only invited my closest friends. There wasn't a mass hoard of people on the invite like last year's, I could make sure I spent enough time with each person there to get some sort of update, and I could make sure that everyone had their genuine fill of food and booze. A couple of days later and I'm completely ecstatic that I threw the bbq and went against my original selfish thoughts.

That's the cool thing with good friends. No matter how much time has passed and no matter how much of a brat I've been to my friends, they've always been there for me through the good and the bad. And vice versa. That reminds me of one of my favorite moments this weekend...

I have a really close friend that lives in the East Bay. Every year, we have issues with my bbq because her family takes part in their annual block party as well. Without fail, however, she's always made it even if it was just for a little bit just to say hi to me, despite the long drive. This year was especially special to me. In the last couple of weeks, we've had a couple of phone conversations that had us arguing on the phone or not understanding each other. We had a couple more after that involved apologizing to each other and communicating our frustrations. I hadn't seen her in a while either and I was really excited to see her. Given how tired she was from other stuff in her life going on, she made it a point to tell me she would be over at my house early in the day before my bbq to help me set up and then would have to go to help her family out. She got there an hour early and immediately gave me a hug. We sat on the couch and did our chitty chat updates. We even sat outside to get some sunshine so I could continue my stories with her. At one point we got cheesed out and just sat there hugging each other. I cried while she held me and hated the fact that I couldn't be the strong person she's always made me out to be. I was thankful for her reassurance, which in turn gave me the strength. That was all I needed and she knew exactly how I needed to be loved at that particular moment. Everything's going to be okay... both with me and her, as well as myself. Thanks Francey. I love u.

So with that, Happy Independence Day everyone.